wtf!

wtfffuck is wrong with the guy im into?! how many hints does he need.. that i want him, i need him, and he has to be here NOW! omg.. if i was a whore, there would be some guy in my bed right now. but since i was raised as an aristocrat young lady i am going to bed alone.. but i really wish he was here.. ughhhh
wtf is his fucking problem. i know i am drunk i know if i was sober i would never say these things.. but what fucking european is he... i am not even speaking between the lines.. i am pretty straight up. how many fucking signs does he need? i pretty much told him you need to sleep over tonight!!! and where is he?! not here... really?! fuck you... i really liked you... but the other night you  fucked it all up with the shit you said. now all you are is a hot body with great sex. and thats really expendable. just so you know. i cant take this... a little more and i'll give up on him.
on the other hand my roommate and i have a little innocent flirting going on. his gf hates it. its pretty funny. me and him have this unspoken charisma connection and his gf or w.e. the fuck she is... knows i don't hit on him and he is not hitting on me but still knows there is something going on. its so fucking hilarious. i know i cant over step my boundaries bc we live together...but it so much fun just "accidentally"being sexy to each other and just those unspoken words. too bad i am too responsible to let anything more than that happen.
i promise i wont delete this post tmw when i am a little sobered up!